My Side of the Story

Well, Macy will be officially one week old in one hour and 31 minutes. I can't believe it's been a week since the hospital, and I really can't believe that Dan and I have managed to handle a newborn for 5 whole days! I wanted to give you all my perspective on things, as I wasn't able to do any typing or picture taking on the big day.

The hospital was definitely an experience that was filled with highs and lows and lots of emotions. Macy was determined to come into this world on her own terms. The drops in heart rate "scared the b-jesus" out of me (Friends, anyone?) and I was not expecting her to arrive as quickly as she did. She had no intention of letting them use pitocin to help her along. I had not planned on doing this without pain meds, but looking back, I don't think I would have done anything differently. It was truly the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but the end result was completely worth it. If anyone wants more details, let me know. I have no problem telling the story with as much or as little detail as you want :)

We came home on Sunday night, and believe it or not, that was the first time I cried. I walked in to the house with Macy, showed her her bedroom, and completely lost it. Dan came in the house and asked what was wrong. My answer was a teary, "I have no idea." I think the emotion of the entire weekend hit me all at once, and I didn't know what else to do. (Please note that since then, I have cried at least once a day.) I should have saved some of those tears for the night ahead...Macy probably slept a total of an hour and a half that night. Dan and I kept getting up and thinking, "What have we gotten ourselves into?!"

Monday was the pediatrician, and that provided us with a lot of reassurance. We were told that we were not the only ones who had a newborn that cried all night and that this did not make us terrible parents. She gave us some good tips, and since then Macy has been sleeping for 2-3 hours at a time throughout the night. I'm told that this is pretty good for a week old baby. She and I spend the day napping, eating, and getting to know one another. I look at her, and I am amazed at how much I love her. And I don't care what anyone says...she is the cutest baby in the world (angel kisses and all).

Thanks to everyone for their e-mails, phone calls, gifts, and general well-wishes. I wish I could respond to everyone, but time and my sanity are not allowing me to do that right now. Please don't be offended if I can't answer the phone when you call or respond to your e-mail. Just know that Dan and I truly appreciate all of your love and support. We can't wait for you all to meet Macy and to catch up with us...it just might take a little while :)